Tuesday, May 19, 2009


somewhere in the inner part of a unique place where the temperature is around 37'C or 98'F...

handso: look, ive had enough with you already! why dont you just write something on it??
braid: i am plain lazy. thats it.
handso: lazy? come on, you had enough rest for like... almost a week. and you said you are LAZY? gimme other solid reason!
braid: i have no idea what to tell. reasonable enuf??
handso: wtf? lame one, pal. i know u got like zillions other thingies and stuffies u wanna blurt out to them. just shake the bluff, will ya??
braid: aint gonna do it, mate. look, there's NO DIFFERENCE whether i post it or not. mind your own business, okay.
handso: it IS my goddamn business. i have this sense of hardworkingness and geekiness all along, and YOU ruin it! by not allowing me to work!
braid: whaddya mean? i dont get it. if u really wanna write, just write. dont blame me for your own clumsiness.
handso: you f***ing idiot! YOU are the one who controls everything! and YOU cant even get your sorry ass to work for these days! YOU prevent me from working. YOU dont let me move. YOU are the lazy one. so YOU are the one who should be blamed!
braid: okay. i wanna get some sleep. got anything else?

handso: sleep? SLEEP? all u ever think now is SLEEP? wake up, BRAIN!! get moving! keep posting on your blog. as one of your HANDS, i cant do anything if you dont send those neurons whatsoever to me to allow me to work!! you moron, get back here!! dont sle....zzzzzzz...

due to the plain stubborness and laziness of the braid a.k.a brain, the handso a.k.a hand cant do anything to maintain the constant posts to this blog. lots of apologies from the handso.

Thursday, May 14, 2009


i LOOOVE kinokuniya.

what i found there this evening:

cant breathe. too excited. felt like jumping right there at the moment. but the rm100++ in the price tag made me squirm. next time when i got enough bucks i'll buy it.

see? omygodomygodomygod the whole stacks of SEP novels made me feel like bursting into tears. AT LAST! after mph, popular and borders, i managed to find the remaining novels i havent bought yet in KINOKUNIYA!! go ain... go ain... yay yay yay!

well, as this saturday i got math and biolab exam.. seems like i gotta hold the novels for a while. unless.. i finished up studying, then i can read one of em tonight.

G0D, I AM SO GOIN TO STUDY NOW!!! toodles!!

Monday, May 11, 2009


Your Handwriting -- What does it Mean?
by Nitin, taken from http://www.indiastudychannel.com/resources/13225-Your-Handwriting-What-does-Mean.aspx

1. Letters slant to the left: Indicates introspection and a lot of emotional control.

2. Letters slant to the right: Reveals a person who's outgoing, friendly, impulsive, and emotionally open.

3. Letters are straight up and down: The sign of someone who's ruled by the head, not the heart.

4. Letters that slant in more than one direction: Indicates versatility and adaptability.

5. An erratic slant: Usually means a lack of flexibility.

6. Heavy pressure writing (like you can feel the rib made on the back of the paper): The writer is agitated.

7. Moderate pressure (the writing is dark, but you can't feel the rib on the other side of the paper): Shows ability to deal with stress.

8. Light pressure: Indicates someone who seems to take life in stride.

9. Tiny letters: Indicate the writer is has somewhat low self esteem but is intelligent.

10. Small letters: The hallmark of quiet, introspective types - they're generally detail-oriented and have good concentration.

11. Large letters: Sign of a confident, easygoing individual.

12. Huge letters: Indicate someone who's theatrical, usually loud, and needs to be the center of attention at all times.

13. Wide letters (their width and height are about the same): The mark of someone who's open and friendly.

14. Narrow letters: Show someone who's somewhat shy and inhibited but very self-disciplined.

15. Letters that don't touch: Indicate an impulsive, artistic, sometimes impractical free thinker.

16. Some letters connecting: Means the writer's personality blends logic and intuition.

17. All letters making contact: The sign of someone who's highly cautious.

18. A curved first mark: Shows a person who's traditional and plays by the rules.

19. A straight beginning stroke: Reveals someone who's rigid and doesn't like being told what to do.

20. A final stroke straight across: The writer is cautious.

21. An end mark that curves up: Reveals generosity.

22. Perfect penmanship: The hallmark of a communicative person.

23. An indecipherable scrawl: Indicates a person who's secretive, closed-up and likes to keep his thoughts to himself.

there's more to the handwriting. spot yours and the meaning. come on, lets delve into the mystery world of graphology... (dramatic, eh?)

Handwriting Analysis: Putting It To Work
by Andrea McNichol
Handwriting Analysis by Karen Kristin Amend and Mary Stansbury Ruiz.

1. Are your Us and Ws rounded on their bottoms?
You're sensitive and maybe poetic.

2. Do you cross your Ts in the middle or at the top?
The lower you cross your
T, the less ambition you have.

3. Do you loop your Cs at the top?

Then, to quote Carly Simon, you're so vain.

4. Are your As and Os tightly closed?
Perhaps you're hiding something.

5. Do your letters slant every which way?

If so, then yikes. Only 10 percent of the general population has a wobbly slant--compared with 70 to 80 percent of convicted felons.

6. Do you have the "felon's claw"?

It's another hallmark of the criminal, and it occurs when you bring a letter straight down, then attach a claw-shaped curve to its end--say when you're writing the lowercase

7. Is your signature different from your regular handwriting?

Then perhaps you're putting on an act.

8. Do the connecting swoops between your letters droop?

Maybe you have a martyr complex, and are carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders.

9. Is your handwriting spiky and angular?

Relax. There's no need to be so tense.

10. Are your letters a bit squatty?

If they're biggest in the middle zone, and don't extend much up or below the baseline, then you're perhaps a bit childish. The Disney logo, based on Walt Disney's handwriting, is a good example of this.

i have to ADMIT it. my lecturer kinda complained bout how he cannot be able to READ ma handwriting, fareez told me. so thats the main reason this post came out. to interpret my messy handwriting and discover the hidden meaning behind it. and decide whether i should change it or not. haha.

the result:
i am a person who is ruled by the head, not the heart. i am quiet, introspective type, generally detail-oriented and has good concentration. my personality blends logic and intuition. i am rigid and do not like being told what to do. i am secretive, closed-up and like to keep my thoughts to meself. i am sensitive and maybe poetic. i have high ambition. perhaps i am hiding something. perhaps i am putting on an act.

haha. WHATEVER... try it out, guys.

Sunday, May 10, 2009


lets switch to geeky mood, everyone.

went to times square yesterday and wandered around with ma friends. stopped at borders. never know there's a bookstore named borders; other than mph, popular, kinokuniya, mbs and pustaka saujana.

my first impression when i had a look at the fiction side: GOSH, I LOOOVE IT!!!

it was like a LIBRARY. the tall shelves were plastered to the wall, with few small shelves in the center. there were LOTS of them. the NOVELS.

filled with giddiness and anticipation, i walked along the way; smelling the books, touching and savouring the moment of excitement. the next round; i started to search for the names of familiar authors.

Jodi Picoult, Nora Roberts, Judith McNaught, Sophie Kinsella, Barbara Delinsky, Meg Cabot, Danielle Steel, Tami Hoag, Fern Michaels, James Patterson, Cecilia Ahern...


its SUSAN ELIZABETH PHILLIPS!!!! omygodomygodomygod i cant freakingly believe this!!

this heart of mine. done. first lady. done. dream a little dream. done. nobody's baby but mine. done. heaven, texas. done. match me if you can. done. ain't she sweet. done.

then there's the KISS AN ANGEL! awww, id be damned if i din buy it. thats the first novel i chose followed by picoult's plain truth, mcnaught's tender moment and roberts' high noon. wasting money? nay, do i even care??

turned out i had only rm20 in my purse. hehehe. cant withdrew money cuz only got rm50 in maybank and rm43 in cimb. hahaha. no worries, guess ill just have to be patient waiting for my daddy's rm200 next week. lalalala~~

but i was kinda frustrated as the phillips' novels were not ALL sold there. if i manage to find the others, i am 100% sure i'll take em without thinking twice. whether i had money or not. i'll do whatever it takes to get a hold of her other novels:

1. Just Imagine
2. Lady Be Good
3. It Had To Be You
4. Breathing Room

i mean it. WHATEVER it takes to get em. i'll do it. TRY ME.

ps. finished reading kiss an angel this morning at 1pm. mcnaught's next.

Saturday, May 09, 2009

sick vs kind

the world is full of sick people.

1. the girl was getting ready to ride the bus. the way she said goodbye to her boyfriend: touching her cheek to his twice and a quick kiss to his mouth. off she went. i don give a damn care if she's australian or american or chinese. she is a MALAY. and MUSLIM.

2. the guys were smoking on the pavement. along the road. on the stairs. the way they smoked: huffing and puffing as if they had all the time to show off the art of filling their lungs with poisonous smoke. i don give a damn care if they gonna get zillions of incurable diseases some days soon. i hate being SICK. and CANCER.

3. the punks, emos and bangladeshis were hanging out everywhere. the way they talked among themselves: like everybody wanna hear every single words that came out from their mouth. like the street was stamped with the name of their father. like they can do whatever they want. like every people adore the sight of them idling around. i don give a damn care if they wanna waste their precious time doing nonsense. but please dont STARE. at ME.

4. i was asked to wait for few minutes at the monorail station next to kl sentral. the way i showed my patience: refused to sit down on either the chair or stairs, reading few pages of susan elizabeth phillips's kiss an angel and tuning in to fly.fm. i don give a damn care if the few minutes she said was really few. it was HOURS. almost TWO fucking hours.

to balance the equlibrium, the world is also full of kind people.

1. the auntie tried to start a conversation with me while i was staring at the people. she asked me questions. i answered. i asked her. she answered. it was only for a brief moment. later she sat on the stairs. waiting PATIENTLY. for his HUSBAND to turn up.

2. the uncle a.k.a monorail security guard checked me out several times. asked me, 'waiting for who?'. few minutes passed. he telled me, 'go sit down on the chair over there'. another hour passed. as i walked past him and said 'i am going back home', he chuckled and said 'that's the result of being loyal, eh?'. he might be thinking i was waiting for my boyfriend to come. and i was going to stay overnight in his house. let him be. i was to tired to ARGUE. very TIRED.

3. the uncle a.k.a uia security guard let me in although it was past 10pm. he asked the uncle taxi to pull over by the side of the road. i din mind walking along the road from the gate to the zainab college at 10.30pm. i asked the uncle taxi to keep the change, raised my hand slightly to show respect when he drove out. i turned the phone off when she called. and i started walking. with a long stride, on purpose. let's not elaborate on the tears. only the HEART. plus BROKEN in the end.

on second thought, i wonder if i stayed a little longer waiting in the station, i might be able to observe the routine of sick humans and jotted the habits down on a piece of paper. and the list might be more than 3. maybe 100. 1000.

she should've made me wait for another two hours. two DAYS would be fine.

oh, btw.. standing and waiting while wearing heels for almost two hours din sound too pathetic, right? its just hilarious. hahaha. lets savour the moment even for a while.

Friday, May 08, 2009


so i survived my journey today. back at 6.30pm and rushed to pray.

technically, i aint lying to ma mom. said to her ma friend farah will accompany me to the appoinment. what i din tol ma mommy was that farah then decided to go back to kuantan in the eleventh hour. and i din bother looking for another. bein INDEPENDENT is just so awesome. dont u agree?? hahahah
then ma mom called jus now askin how the appoinment's goin. i said i got back here already. look, nothing happened to me! u should trust me for goin ALONE in the first place. for gossake i am 19!

got ma ic. enrolled in the beading courses. attended appoinment. MISSIONS ACCOMPLISHED!

somehow i recalled the moment i stepped out from the iium's gate, waiting for the bus. caught some students glaring at ma feet. first i thought 'well, i got a nice pair of white peep-toe-wedges.. i dont blame them for staring...'

turned out i was s0 damn wrong. i heard them whispering, 'die tak pakai sarung kaki? bleh lepas plak...'

shoot me. i hopped on to the bus asap to avoid further self-embarassment.

what? do u need to put on a face like THAT? btw, what u gonna do if i din wear 'em? sue me? try it then!

i'll see u in court!

Thursday, May 07, 2009


tomorrow ive got quite a long to-do list:
1. pick ma new ic at jabatan pendaftaran. hop on lrt, get down at bandaraya n walk quite few miles to get there.
2. get to the 'bead artistry' place to survey on the courses offered. lrt, down at pasar seni. walk again.
3. ma 'braces' appoinment at ampang. erm, this 1 im not so sure maself. get lrt and down at ampang park? get the bus? ermm think ill just do the try-and-error tomorrow. after all, i cant be lost ryte? errr... well...

yeah, speaking of which here is the interesting part. see??

hahah! big apple's coupons!! lets see. get 3 donuts for rm5 (usually rm6.60). get free 3 donuts for purchase of a box of 6 donuts. free 6 donuts for purchase of 12 donuts (gave to nad earlier). iced cappucino for rm4 (usually rm6.50) with purchase of 12 donuts (gave to atiqa).

wahwahwah cant wait to get ma hands on the doooonuts!!! let's have a donut party, guys!!

am thinking of playing the sims after updating. well, i got no more class. that's why. yeah i know next week's final exam. but tomorrow never die, right? except if i die first then there will be no tomorrow at all, but.. well... erm..

talking about death, suddenly it reminds me of me rat.

poor rat. look, i din mean to kill ya in the first place. the lecturer asks me to do so. please dont blame me for ur short span of life. i know u might want to enjoy your life as i am doing right now, but.. unfortunately u had a medic student killed you for the sake of completing her experiment. and i AM your bloody murderer. please dont pay a visit in ma dream tonight. nad isnt here, she's goin back to kuantan. but yun might come over.

somehow, please FORGIVE me for taking ur life away. may god bless ur soul.

okay. so i am crapping now. better go perform ma isya' prayer.

Monday, May 04, 2009


25 things bout meself:

1. several attempts to change this layout to pink-3-column-template but to no avail - lazy...
2. spending most of the time dreaming~~ lalala
3. cant wait to finish reading all the novels. wohoooo!!
4. wanna find a job and own $$$$$, especially.
5. wanna go travelling to London and Korea alone. ALONE.
6. wanna write and publish own novel. did i mention laziness earlier?
7. wanna get a diploma in 3d animation
8. wanna craft cute dollhouses for sales. awww....
9. LOVE arts and crafts
10. dreaming on becoming an actress. bleh.
11. hate combing ma hair. duh, who cares?
12. hate make-ups. a definite no-no. ugh.
13. hate that i am trapped in this situation and helpless!
14. hate that i cannot do anything i want to. duh.
15. part of evil-me wanna sneak out to a nightclub. lololol.
16. and watch a live concert. i. am. so. dead.
17. can i NOT be a doctor?
18. hate to hate people
19. like to do things MY way
20. dislike physics. like sleeping. hehe.
21. hate el-jerkos and a-holes. hate extra-gedix and over-perasan biatches.
22. hate remembering birthdays or any dates. short-term-memory loss.
23. secret wish: marry a rich and charming guy.
24. okay, and have baby boys or twins.
25. told ya, i AM a DREAMER. lol.

sharaf, i am so gonna kill you for making me admit all these things. haha~

i would like to tag: nad, alli, aimi, azreeza, nantini, shake, julia, sarah, irfan, farah, dee. if u guys got the time to do this taggy thingy, i appreciate it. really.

and YOU too!!! theehee...


i am currently reading judith mcnaught's someone to watch over me.

got another 5 novels on the shelf which i havent read yet; bought them from the book fair.

8 more i bought from mph yesterday; collection of love series for only rm200.

guess i gotta hold on blogging for a while. after all, the final exam's next week.

need to study. need to read those. haha.