while walking to the university LRT station, you rolled up your sleeves till the elbow. the sun was blazing hot on you, i understand. you need some air. as i glanced at your tote-bag, i wondered if you got any 'spare' clothes for you to change. maybe a tiny blouse that wont made a bulge in the bag? a set of striking baby T-shirt? a tube? god, how can i suspect you of bringing along the clothes since you would not dare to show off your boldness to the public. otherwise, they'll judge you. especially uia students, you will be DEAD if they caught you wearing something indecent. they will pass along the news to the other students and your reputation will be tarnished badly. so i understand.
by hook or by crook, you just have to wear the 'spare' clothes so that it wont go to waste. so you slipped into the toilet and got changed. you throw the jubah inside the bag. there you go. safe and sound. a girl wearing jubah came out of from the toilet with a different personality. yes. that's you. so i understand. you just need the freedom of wearing any type of clothes, right? the heck with pakguard or the dean of uia or the mahallah's principal, they cant force you to wear something 'conservative' like the jubah, right? inside the uia compund, yes. you may as well pretend to abide by the law. but they just have no rights to impose any summons on you if you break the rule OUTside the uia. so, you're a free girl now. do whatever you want. so i understand.
oh, you had a date with your boyfriend i see. relax, i totally understand. humans need to love and to be loved. it is perfectly normal for a college girl to hang out with a boyfriend. no matter which university she got in; uia, um, usm or uitm, its the same for ANY girl. so dont make a big fuss over it. you walked side by side holding hands together with your boyfriend. awwww, that is so sweet. you need a hand to guide you all along the way. whether your boyfriend chose the right or the wrong way, you just follow him blindly. THAT is true love, you said. so i understand.
you ate lunch together, went window shopping and walked in a nightclub. oh wait, is that NOT allowed in our religion? oh, you just went there to beat the stress, i see. maybe dancing a bit? i understand. you were in a good hand, your boyfriend was there to protect you. the fundamental key in a relationship is the trust. hm, you might as well put your whole body into his hand then. after all, he IS your mr.perfect am i right? so i understand.
that was the way you spent your weekend. in the night, he called and you chatted for few hours minimum. you cant just expect a couple NOT to communicate for a long time. if not, then its not called a couple. besides, you have a burning desire to hear his voice every second, enable you to 'function' properly in your daily life. so i understand.
there is NO way you can ever be separated from your beloved boyfriend. even if you know 'dating' is against islam, going to a nightclub is againt islam, make contact with your boyfriend is against islam and wearing fit clothes is against islam... you just cannot resist the sweet temptation of breaking the rules. after all, you'll repent when you get older, right? even if you know that death can come at any time, you still want to have it your way.
so let it be that way. i'll try to make me understand.